Words are so silly sometimes. Description is too. That's especially evident when you want to explain a feeling or an experience that isn't possible to spell out. I wish I could just spill my aura on this page, for everyone to just sniff or feel and be able to comprehend it...because it's not something you can read, or even see. Because if I tell you it makes me want to stay up all night, or cry, or clean my room or give up or cry out or expain, then you have an idea...that it's something I can't write. And as I try to explain and let you understand how I feel, you read my "thoughts", you think I'm overdramatizing the situation...but it's an explanation for goodness sake. Bear with me - this is my life.